I have many bullet points written on a couple of sticky notes that I would like to address in this weekly email. First is...family history. How is it that I have been raised in the Church and I don't even know if I'm related to Joseph Smith? It's absurd. So, Dad, are we related to those famous Smiths of yore? I know we're related to Levi Hancock through Mum's side, but that's the wrong side of the familia. As for the Schroeder side...when did they come to America? What's the sitch (that means situation)? I should have investigated more of our family history before leaving, right, but I didn't so...the ball's inyour hands because I dropped it. I would be MIGHTY thankful if any of you'n saw fit to write me the letters of our histories.
Point two (I won't continue to number them because they are plentiful and you know how I am with numbers): How is Papa? Are you on the road to recovery, Papa? Are you keeping your vision upward ("it is better to look up")? It's hard to, I know. And you, Gammie?
MICHAEL IS MARRIED! Woo! That is so exciting! It sounds like the wedding was beautiful and fun, and I was glad to hear your account of the trip, Mom, thanks. We always did love a good road trip. And Bray didn't like Pirates? That's too bad, it IS pretty spooky, though. Wait...isn't that the one Rob went on 3 times?...That can't be right, I must be mistaken. :)
The basement...Oh! I remember why I wrote that down: is it all cleaned out? Has a painter been hired to do the deed of beautifying the walls? Are you alone in the basement yet, Chris? And along the same tenor...how are Sarah and Dust? When does Cameron come home again, February? And are you getting excited for Hawaii?! Have you researched some awesome places to visit? Things to see and do? Take pictures like you did in Mexico, yeah? Okay, yeah. And have you given in to the Christmas card tradition yet? I didn't get one from you, so I certainly hope that if you have been sucked in that you didn't forget me...SEND ME AN EMAIL! It's faster than writing a letter. It's not hard, I promise. Oh, and typing is fun. And you always have a device with you that allows you to access your email. No excuses, now.
I discovered that we can listen to cds! No iPods, but yes cds! Hallelujah! Would any of you be willing to send me some of my church music? Some Jon Schmidt perhaps? Or Alex Boye?...Hahaha. Sister Takapu and I get the Ithaca elders' car Sunday afternoons until Monday afternoons so we can run errands in the morning on P-days, and we listened to this mix cd of church music today while driving about and what did I hear but an incredibly powerful song by Alex Boye? This is some serious gospel music, so beware! It's called "Word of God Speak" or something (I'm naming it from the chorus). Look it up. For real. It makes me feel so...desirous to be worthy of God's presence in my life. I want to badly, I need so badly, that presence always in my life. And I am blessed to have it through His Holy Spirit, every day, every minute, because I have made a promise. What a gift! I am so thankful! But yes, listen to the song--"ees good!" Name that movie.
Oh, and I looked through a picture book (My Redeemer Lives) while we were visiting a recently baptized sister's home, Dyana, and I found a very powerful painting (obviously it was printed in the book by ink, but I assume it was originally a painting). The title of the painting is "Hope" and the artist is Liz Lemon Swindle. Look that up, too. It depicts two of Christ's Apostles running, with tears of hope in their eyes. The Risen Lord. Their Friend, Teacher, Savior, Shepherd, Redeemer. As disciples of Christ, this is how we can feel as we remember our Savior and the miracle of His Resurrection. As we remember that He lives! I know our Savior lives.
Do you remember in the Disney classic "Aladdin" when he asks Jasmine, "Do you trust me?" I relate that to my relationship with Sister Takapu. She has been serving as a missionary for a while now, and yes we are equal as companions, but she has a LOT MORE knowledge about being a missionary than I do. So...do I humble myself and trust her? Do I choose to listen and not rebel? Do I feel resentful about having to be led by someone else like Laman and Lemuel, taught by someone who is my peer (she's a little older than I am, but the question stands)? I think I was kind of like Laman and Lemuel (the brothers L, I'll call them) last week; even if it was nice to have someone other than me calling the shots, I think I also felt resentful that I had to follow soemone else. I think that is in large part due to my pride. This last week, however, I decided to just trust Sister Takapu. You're probably thinking "jeez, yeah, of course you should trust her, you doofus!" But honestly, I discovered I'm a prideful person so it was difficult for me and our companionship suffered a bit because of it; it wasn't as unified as it should be. Don't get me wrong--I haven't ever argued with Sister T or had serious problems; this was all inside me. But Heavenly Father, because He needs this work to move forward, and because we were praying and studying and doing what we are supposed to, He softened my heart. He has helped me to trust Sister T and there has been much more unity since I've let down my walls and been humbled. Obviously I need her to help me know what things are the best for me to do as a missionary, how best to do something as a missionary. And I love her! She is absolutely fabulous! :) For real. This problem was all on me. But worry not--this too has passed.
In reference to Panera Bread, I have passed it already about four times while driving...It is by Walmart and every other major store (Lowe's, B&N, etc). We're only over in that area on P-days usually, though, so I haven't been able to visit that wondrous eatery. I stand by my promise: I'll eat there before the end of this transfer. Oh, and there is a Jimmy John's downtown, too. Interesting, eh?
Sister Grant is this wonderful, hilarious, blunt, strong, 80-year-old woman in the ward who is also a ward missionary. Last week she surprised us with an invitation to go to lunch with her and Dyana (see above)! How sweet, right? She's awesome; she grew up in Massachusetts and has a thick accent that I love. Anyway, we went to lunch at the Chinese Buffet. SWEET! Let me tell you, it was a blessing to be invited to lunch, and I was SO FULL afterward. Good grief. You've gotta love being a missionary.
Dyana was baptized in November, and she is so funny. I love her. She and her husband, Tito (not a member) are quite a hoot. Gracious, she has this boisterous, happy laugh that just spreads your smile from ear to ear as far as it will go. It makes me so happy. But something that I really love about Dyana, other than her laugh, is that she is so excited for life after death. She is so excited and pumped about the blessings we are promised in return for our kept promises. She is so stalwart and ready to do the right things so she will be worthy to receive those blessings. She's really bearing down on Tito to get baptized so she can be sealed to him in the temple; it's kind of funny to hear about, actually. He's great, though; easy-going and happy. They both LOVE "the sisters." Both are Puerto Rican, so they speak with NY/Spanish accents, and it's awesome. I LOVE THEM! I LOVE THIS!
Dad, I thought of an analogy as I got ready this morning that I wanted to share with you, but...It turns out that if I don't write things down, I forget them. So, the analogy is hidden for a little while. Sorry. Hahaha.
So, Danielle IS getting married after all? I didn't know, you see. I haven't received ANY NEWS about the wedding yet...nudge nudge. I understand these are veeeery busy times, but...please! I just want a little note! That's all! Please? :)
Good grief, this is a long email. Do you know the Book of Mormon edition of the Ensign that was published a few months ago? Well, Elder Christofferson wrote an article in it that I was reading this morning. (Here is the miracle, Mom). In the MTC I realized that I didn't "know" all of the things I thought I did, and so I had a hard time. I felt like that struggle was something that other people in my district weren't dealing with, and I didn't want to reveal this particularly tender difficulty with my companions because the MTC is a hard enough experience for one person to deal with. I talked to one of our 2 teachers, Sister Murray, about it, and she reaffirmed what I'd already decided to do: I needed to act in faith, move forward and do the things I'm asked, and Heavenly Father will bless me with a witness of the truth of all the Gospel, everything I've been taught since my childhood. I'd receive that knowledge "after the trial of [my] faith." So I've been praying since then, and doing those things I'm supposed to, in the hope that I'd receive a witness. I did receive it. As I neared the end of this article by Elder Christofferson, I read in his testimony that his knowledge of the divinity of the Book of Mormon is the foundation for his testimony of Jesus Christ, Joseph Smith, and The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I KNOW the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I KNOW it is divine. I didn't realize until this morning that Heavenly Father has been leading me to this answer for a few days, that knowing the Book of Mormon is true is enough. That is enough for me right now. Because it does build the knowledge of other things. We are promised that in the last paragraph of the Intro to the Book of Mormon, and little did I know that I'd be my most important investigator this week. I can say now, and it is a MIRACLE that I can, that I know Jesus Christ is my Savior. I know Joseph Smith was a prophet of God, that God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ appeared to him, that he restored His Church to the earth by the power of God, and that he translated the Book of Mormon--scripture SAVED for OUR DAY--by the power and will of God. I know the Book of Mormon is true, and I know that this is truly Christ's church on the earth. It is run by the power and authority of God, the priesthood, and that is the only way Christ's church can be run. It is built on the foundation of apostles and prophets, and Christ is the most important part--the corner stone. This is the miracle, this is evidence of God's hand in my life, this answer. I am so thankful.
One last story, yeah? We visited a lady named Diana last night, who has been visited only a few times by the missionaries. As we talked with Diana, read through the Restoration pamphlet, the most overwhelming feeling of gratitude filled me up. She has been prepared by the Lord to receive His message. She is one of His elect. She has faced many trials in her life, but her faith in the power of prayer, and in God's divine assistance, are very strong. She is an example of the believers to her family and the people in her apartment building. The Spirit was so prevalent in our meeting with Diana! She is absolutely incredible. She goes to another church, but she is listening to this saving message! She is accepting us into her home, accepting us into her love. She has been prepared, and I am so thankful to be a part of Christ's work in helping her receive His restored Gospel.
I am sure Sean's talk was the most wonderful thing, ever! And of course he sounds mature and full of the Spirit--he definitely grew as a missionary. Truthfully, if you don't grow as a missionary, you are doing something wrong, and Seanie--he was doing the right things. :) Yes, please tell me about Keaton's talk if you go! Oh, and Kam's email's?...Would you mind it terribly if I asked you to send them by post? The ancient way? That way I'll have time to read through them and I'll have more mail! Hahaha. Thank you for making such an effort on my account, Mom. I love you.
There is so much I would share with you, so much I wish you could experience with me. This work is blessed, it could not function without the Lord's guidance and authority.
Thank you, Dad, for always working so hard to keep our family afloat. I know Heavenly Father has blessed us as we've strived as a family to live His Gospel. There are so many people here in Ithaca, and most certainly everywhere but I've been too self-absorbed to notice, that have so little and yet are willing to give so much. I want to be one of those people. I want to develop that Christ-like attribute of charity more fully so I can fulfill the promises I've made to Heavenly Father. He gives so much, and we are closer to Him as we do the same. Be generous! Life is more than what we hold in our hands, and we have more than we need. With great power comes great responsibility, right? It's a new year, let's work to be more generous and give freely of our time, talents, and goods to those who need them, who will benefit from them. Who's to say but God what role we have to play in the lives of those around us? I love you soooo so so (to the infinite power) much, family! I do. Thank you for always supporting me despite those qualities of mine that are so irksome. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for providing me with a safe place to land. I know the Gospel of Jesus Christ has blessed our family as we've lived it. Keep on working! There is no growth in comfort and no comfort in growth, right?
Okay, this has taken a lot of time, but there's just so much to say! And there's no time limit for emailing in the field, unless the place you're emailing from has a time limit. Uh oh, right? heh. I learn so much every day! Last week flew by, it was so fast! The missionary schedule is the BEST! Try it. Go on. Try it.
I LOVE YOU!!
love always,
Sister Smith